One Year Later: When the Bleeding Didn’t Stop… But I Changed

There’s something no one really tells you about healing.

It doesn’t always arrive the way you imagined it would.

When I released When the Bleeding Stops a year ago, I thought I understood what healing looked like. I thought it meant closure. Finality. An end to the pain that once felt like it had no language.

I thought “the bleeding stops” meant… it stops.

But one year later, I’ve learned something deeper.

The Bleeding Woman was healed of her issue, which made her whole, but even though her bleeding issue was no longer doesn't mean that her cycle of bleeding did not continue. The way that a woman's body functions that if she no longer has a menstrual cycle, she will be considered menopausal which would've brought on more issues. When Jesus heals the body, we no longer will see the issue of that disease or any relatable to that again.

Sometimes, healing doesn’t mean the bleeding will not surface again or appear to trigger. Sometimes, it means you’ve learned how to live, respond, and grow… even if there are still tender places within you.

This past year didn’t make me perfect. It made me aware.

Aware of the places I was still avoiding. Aware of the parts of me that needed more compassion, not more pressure. Aware that healing is not a destination you arrive at… but a decision you keep making.

There were moments I felt strong. And moments I felt triggered by things I thought I had already overcome.

And that’s when I realized:

You can be healed… and still bleeding.

Healed in your decision to move forward. But still bleeding in your emotions. Healed in your identity. But still processing your memories. And instead of seeing that as failure, I began to see it as evidence that I was doing the work. Because healing isn’t about pretending you no longer feel pain. It’s about no longer letting pain control you.

• It’s choosing:– to pause instead of react– to set boundaries instead of overextending– to tell the truth instead of hiding behind strength

• It’s allowing God to heal not just your behavior… but your identity.

One year later, I don’t just celebrate the book.

I celebrate the woman who kept choosing healing… even when it didn’t look like progress.

And because of that, I created something new.

A reflection guide.

Not as a checklist. Not as pressure. But as a companion.

A space for you to sit with yourself. To process what you’ve been carrying. To identify where you may still be bleeding… and where God is still working.

Because healing doesn’t end with awareness.

It deepens with reflection.

So if you’ve been wondering why certain things still affect you…why you’re “doing better” but not fully free…

Maybe it’s not that healing didn’t happen.

Maybe it’s that it’s still happening.

And that’s okay.

Because who you are becoming…is still a testimony of His grace.